Take Time To Reflect | My Year, My God

Where I am it is the last Friday of the year 2017. These next coming days keep reminding me of where I was at nearly a year ago. New Year’s midnight. I actually have a post coming out on Monday talking about this blog, and how it’s grown because growth was something I gave to God this past year. I wanted to write more. I wanted to reach more people.

There were things in my life on New Year’s day I didn’t know how they would turn out. When the moments arrived, yes, they were stressful, but I knew I had prayed over these issues. I knew the time I spent with God, asking and waiting for His help for these uncertainties. And He did provide, quite swiftly. It just didn’t always feel that way, but looking back He gave us answers as time drew near within a matter of weeks for each thing.

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June

These were unpleasant. Moving back home to start again. Being worried about my uneasy feeling about the movers who packed our stuff. Trying to constantly repeat the same answer to multiple people when home because they didn’t understand the situation. Having no real answer to respond in the first place.

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July/August 

Trying to find a new apartment in an area close to my husband’s school. Searching for over 15 different places only to not find one place we could live in, and being let down because I set my hopes a little high thinking it would be the first place I wanted to stay at. Even after finding a place, tweaking the budget and struggling to understand how we would get through.

And then my birthday happened. I looked back and I felt the push to continue to give to God, and not let the negativity and fear try to rule over me.

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September

We received our boxes from the movers only to find out a lot of our furniture was completely busted, and other items, including, my husband’s expensive game systems were completely gone. The company offered us nothing at first, and later $20 for a coffee table that had its leg broken off.  (Everyone has their opinions, we don’t have money to fight it, trust me, we’ve heard more than an earful on what we should do.)

I had frustration and anger because of this. I felt bad and guilty too because these are items. They were broken, missing, perhaps stolen, but they were items, not people, items won’t go through the fire.. I’m learning to let go of items, it’s hard because you don’t realize the attachment till things are gone.

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Yes, our bed rods are missing so we can’t set up our bed and have been sleeping on our mattress for months. But I tell myself, “We have a mattress, a nice one.” I’m short anyway, my feet at least reach the ground currently.

It could be worse. It could be better. But this is the now currently, and I’ve been reflecting on that.

We’ve gotten this far, somehow, because of the grace and guidance of God. Things have fallen into our lap, especially when we have needed them to, and I believe He will provide.

I learned about meditation on prayer and scripture this past fall. I was working on daily sessions of prayer and reading scripture, which I need to get back to because God was speaking to me (assurance, encouragement, dreams), and I want to hear more of what He wants me to hear.

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He’s helped me draw closer to Him during Christmas and pricking my spirit. He’s pushed me to love others, especially with communication, and trying to reach out the best way I can.

This year wasn’t easy, and I hope 2018 can be a little easier. I’d like to make some friends where I live, and even though I am an introvert I know God can provide for me through this because He’s done before. I no longer doubt.

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In all of the midst of the stress, I recall the times I felt His love. I remember the moments of peace He’s given me in silence and quiet. I remember the tears on the bathroom floor, at my desk, and at the kitchen table. I recall His hand with me on the bathroom floor, at my desk, and at the kitchen table.

Take time to reflect. Don’t just let the year wash into muddy waters. Be the flower that purifies the muddy waters because of the Holy Spirit living in you.


How was God with you this past year? 

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22 thoughts on “Take Time To Reflect | My Year, My God

  1. This is such a great reflection post, T.R. Noble. During these last few days of 2017, I will start to reflect on the things that God has brought me through this year.

    Even when blogging, I wasn’t intentional about praying before writing the posts but during 2018, I want to change that. I want to pray to God and for Him to guide me where He wants me to go.

    Thanks so much for the post T.R. and I can’t wait until 2018 for your new posts.

    Also, I will be starting a new miniseries in January about the Purpose of Fasting. But, I will also restart doing the Parable blog posts Series.

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    1. Yes, I too want to work on prayer or even worship before writing posts. The positive is this is a daily thing we GET to do with Him and for Him, so when we mess up, we simply start over. 🙂 Ah, I remember you talking about that I think in the email. I look forward to the miniseries. You were doing awesome with the parables. Keep at it. 🙂

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  2. Wow adulting is so hard, but I’m glad to see how God has been providing for you. You have such a grateful spirit, and God is so proud of how you’ve trusted Him this year.

    Anyways, I nominated you for the Liebster Award. I know you have more than 200 followers, but whatever. =) Love you lots girl.

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    1. Thank you so much, Lea!!! Your words always uplifting and encouraging.

      Oh wow, thank you so much for thinking of me for the award! I have, around, four Liebster awards. I am thinking of answering everyone’s questions and not random facts that way it won’t be as long 🙂

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      1. Hahaha of course you have four Liebster awards. Glad to contribute one more. The rules I was given were different from ones I’ve read from other blogs so I feel like you can put whatever twist on it you want 🙂
        Have fun writing that long post my love!!

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  3. Yes it’s been a year of growth over. Learning to trust God more and learning to accept that He is good even in the bad times (despite knowing this before). In all if there is anything I can say God has been this year, it’s that He’s been good. He is good! He is good! Oh may we never forget this🙏🏾

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  4. Thanks, T.R. – A very thoughtful post you have here. It is good sometimes to reflect over the year before to see where God has brought us. I used to journal a lot. Not so much anymore. When I did, and when there were times when I felt discouraged, I could look back in my journal and see where God had brought me, and his Words he said to me from before became alive to me again and brought such comfort to my heart. Now, I have my blog entries, so I can look at those, and I can see what all God has taught me this year. He has done a lot in my life, even in the past few weeks, in making me stronger in my faith and in being even more determined to follow him in every aspect of my life, and to give him glory for it all. Sue

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    1. Yes, I have a prayer journal I sometimes write in, and they are prayers to God, especially when things are hard. I also write how God answered the prayers too. 🙂 I’m so glad He is comforting you and strengthening you too.

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  5. Oh, T.R…I’m so sorry that life has thrown so many curve balls this past year! And yet, you have come through with such beauty and grace. Your “positivity” and heart of thanksgiving inspire us all. What a beautiful post this is! And yes, as Josh says, I’m encouraged to take stock of my year as well. I pray that God blesses you beyond all that you can imagine in 2018, my lovely friend! ❤

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    1. Thank you so much, Lynn!! 🙂 Yes, this year has been hard. Living in three different places in this year. I hope God will allow some time to settle this year ❤ I try to walk forward, and I'm so glad God helps me work on taking steps by letting me hold His hand through it. May God be with you and bless you this coming year!!!

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