Feeling Disconnected From God

As Easter approaches, I was wondering what to talk about. When I took my break last week, this was the topic constantly on my mind, and it never left.

I know a lot of people, and myself, have at some point or another in their walk with Jesus have felt disconnected from Him.

Easter and Christmas, in particular, often are the only times people take out of the year to actually draw close to God and that’s it.

You know, when we feel disconnected with God it is kind of similar. We go through the motions. We feel something missing. Make a little bit of effort, and then give up.

Little bit of effort is equal to anything less than a lifetime because Christ gave us His. 

(NIV) James 4:08, “Come near to God and He will come near to you. Wash your hands, you sinners, and purify your hearts, you double-minded.”

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People openly discuss disconnection they feel with God. But it’s hard for us to be honest about the other parts of our life, which we need to do. Before we even try to touch the surface of the disconnection coming from God we need to LOOK AT OURSELVES!

Admittedly, I often times rely on feelings for my relationship with God. As I shared in my testimony post Threat Of Being Stabbed ever since I was 12 I’ve experienced a warmth flood over me when I called out to God. When I was 13 and began to further my relationship with Him, and actually get to know Him, this feeling of warmth occurred every time I spoke to Him, and to this day I have this connection.

However, when I was 13 and starting dreaming, God allowed me to feel this warmth in dreams when I called out to Him, especially when the dreams were approached by a figure I refer to as “the Dark One.” I would call out to God, sing hymns, etc and this loving feeling would wash over me.

Related Post | When The Dark One First Appeared

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There came a time when I would dream but this feeling stopped coming to me in the dream, and I had some dark dreams! By the time I was 12, nightmares hardly released me. I would continue through scenes that were scary, though they were not night terrors.

But when that feeling left me of assurance?

I was helpless…

Or that’s what I thought.

The truth was the Lord remained the same. It was NOT that I was helpless. No. It was that I felt helpless. 

All because of feeling.

He still loved me. He still cared. He was watching and looking over me. He would help me whether I felt Him near or not.

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When I realized this I began to fight against the feeling of disconnect and feeling helpless in my dreams. In fact, one of the most powerful dreams I have ever had, and the most terrifying, dealt with a dark figure trying to lie and make me feel like God wouldn’t help me. Only to push me to scream HE KEEPS HIS PROMISES! HE PROMISED ME!

And when I did an overwhelming flood broke through the dam and I feel His assurance and warmth fall upon me like a cleansing rain.

Now I know life may seem vastly different than a dream but the concept is the same. God remains God. He does not change. Therefore, if there is a disconnect, something is going on with us. 

It could be spiritual warfare. As I’ve shared with others the devil tends to attack those who are doing the work of Christ, and he doesn’t bother with those as much who are already taking part in the flesh of this world (he’ll just pull them in further with enticements, but those will appear to be pleasant).

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In times of trials, we are told this is how we endure, persevere and strengthen our faith.

But spiritual warfare, I believe, needs some kind of fuel (vulnerability) to use against us. And this goes to the next point.

Spiritual warfare or not what is our daily walk with Christ actually like? How many minutes per day have been given to Him in the past week? Do not confuse this for DOING something FOR THE MINISTRY.

I mean purely you and God. Talking to Him. Reading scripture and engaging Him while you read. Mediating on scripture in prayer because you want to connect with Him. 

Consider the following questions.

How sincere are we in these actions? Why are we reading scripture? Why are we repeating scripture? Why are we praying? To list off requests?

“Because we should.” – That’s not good enough for the Lord!

What are our own feelings towards God? Not how He makes us feel, but how we feel for Him?

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What are we allowing in our daily life? Shows that have nudity, violence, cursing, anything that is against what Christ taught? How often do we rebuke thoughts in our mind that have no place in the temple for the Holy Spirit?

My own answer I’m going to share here. “Because I choose what I want to do with my time, and what I want to expose myself to against what God wants me to focus on.” Be honest. We know what is not of the Lord. It is as plain as day and night!

It hurts my heart admitting the truth, but that is exactly what we have to do! It is about sincerity! If we refuse to be honest about our daily life and the things we take part in, watch, and discuss that go against God then our own heart is hardened.

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No wonder we are disconnected. We are cutting off the roots of the True Vine and attaching ourselves to the core of the world and our flesh. Instead of being new creations we are falling back into the corpse of the rotting flesh Jesus Christ saved us from, THAT IS THE MEANING OF EASTER AND THE SALVATION OF JESUS CHRIST!

(NLT) Hebrews 10:22, “Let us go right into the presence of God with sincere hearts fully trusting Him. For our guilty consciences have been sprinkled with Christ’s blood to make us clean, and our bodies have been washed with pure water.”

Reading scripture because that’s what I should do is not good enough to God.

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When I’ve had disturbing dreams and awoken I have clung to scripture, and that is exactly what He wants out of us. To cling to His words and His truth because we can’t get enough of Him on this earth!

Where is your desperation for Christ? Where is my desperation for Jesus?

What have we done that has cut Him out of a time slot that once went to Him? What are we filling our heart with that is replacing and pushing aside the Holy Spirit?

When are we giving Him the praise? Are we praising more than requesting answered prayers?

There will always be room for conviction, to give up things of this world, it may start off with big stuff, but slowly, God will find other things that now He wants you to give Him too. I am here right now with this conviction ❤

I’m going to share the scripture again.

(NIV) James 4:08, “Come near to God and He will come near to you. Wash your hands, you sinners, and purify your hearts, you double-minded.”

If we want God near us, if we want His insight, His assurance, His comfort, and more, then we must draw near to Him with sincere hearts and turn away from the things of self.

Please take time for Him today, I know I need to.

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T. R. Noble

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22 thoughts on “Feeling Disconnected From God

  1. This is amazing Sis! The truth can be difficult to say but we have to hear it if we want to grow. Like I always say, we have to make a conscious effort to spend time with God. Whenever I feel like giving excuses not to spend time with God, the Holy Spirit always reminds me that where my treasure is, there will my heart. And yes, I do feel exhausted and to be honest I don’t feel like doing it sometimes. However I still have to push through those feelings and do it because I know He wants my attention. Oftentimes I wake up in the morning not wanting to go to work. But I don’t call my boss saying I won’t be at work because I don’t feel like it. Our Christian walk isn’t based on how we feel as feelings can be misleading. I stumble at times but I’m at that stage now where I try to be intentional about God because I have realised that nothing is as filling as His presence. Paul said “I discipline my flesh”. There is not growth without discipline.

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    1. Yes, my Little Rock church family was all about learning to discipline the flesh. In fact, knowing this scripture, I think helps us be more aware of the authority we can have over ourselves.

      Thank you for sharing ❤ ❤ He wants to be with us. May we desire Him more.

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  2. Most of the time He convicts me through the testimony of His Holy Spirit as I’m studying the word. But there are other times, when I know instantly I’ve sinned by word or deed that it again is the Spirit’s instant voice in my heart and head that says, You know what you need to do.

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  3. Powerful post, T.R. The Lord has been taking me back to the garden, before the fall and what we were originally created for….perfect intimacy with our Creator God. It’s so important to stick close and keep our eyes firmly on Jesus. Thank you for this reminder.
    Blessings, Hayley 😊💜

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  4. Amen! We’ve got to put in the effort, willingly, out of love for Him and appreciation for all He’s done for us, not out of obligation or so we can check it off a list. I’ve been more determined to make that effort lately and, if I’m honest, reading all these convicting and inspiring blogs has helped me “discipline my flesh” to do that—so thanks! 😉 Also, I want my own blog to be “God inspired” and it can’t be if I’m not close enough to Him to hear Him. My husband and I started a Rick Warren faith study together last night and I’m excited to see what God does as a result of that! 🙂

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    1. That is so wonderful you two are doing that!!! My pastor 15 years ago (when I was 13) did a study on Wednesday nights one summer on the Purpose Driven Life. Rick wrote it and it’s a 40 day devotional. I really enjoyed the book.

      You are so right!!! Disciplining the flesh comes in many ways. But one of the main ways has to come from our desire to put the focus on Him. ❤

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