Sometimes, I have to sit down with myself and share what is in my heart…to myself. I have to be honest. I have to admit the things I may not want to hear or struggle to believe. I’m not sure if you will enjoy this as a series, so please let me know. I know writing this spoke to me because it’s coming from myself, but maybe it may speak something to you too 🙂
Is it weird to hear that name or is it familiar? I know ever since you were little you imagined about what sort of person you would become. You envisioned a woman with similar characteristics, just a little older. In fact, you were able to pick out things as a child which remain today.
But the woman you thought you would become still is not fully there yet. There’s a confidence missing. There’s a strength lacking, and that strength, as you know, is faith.
Perhaps, that is why you are writing about a character in your story sharing these same traits. She remains hidden, yet strives to help others. In the series, she will eventually stand out more. By blogging, you’ve begun to take this step to walk into the ends of the earth preaching His gospel. Take heart.
God always knows us, as He has since before we were born. Sometimes, I think you forget that.
You received your name, your full name that is, after a dream your mother had before you were born.
Don’t tell me that is not an act of God.
The woman you dreamt of becoming is in the making. Do not believe otherwise. She is a woman after the Lord. She is a woman not afraid to speak His truth. I know the encouragement others have given you has helped, but you must believe in the Lord’s truth.
You’re striving for Him.
Validation of others is a blessing, but we are verified in Him, no one else. Never forget that. You must trust Him more if you want to see the full harvest at work.
There have been moments that have defined the strength He’s given you, and you are fully aware those moments were not easy. Every time you have asked Him to humble you, He has, but the circumstances have been difficult.
I think He just wants to remind you that He is in control, no matter what.
The woman you thought you would become, I believe, was something God gave you a brief glimpse of. He was with you as a child, and He is with you. The parts you have to grow up in, including salvation, continue growing in. Like Paul said, when he was man he put childish things away. But the parts of a child that remain with you, the things God knows are only for Him, keep them because they are special.
People don’t have to understand everything about you because the Lord does, and you only need Him. Nonetheless do not be afraid to try to help them understand, and when they don’t, love them anyway.
Have patience. The Lord is at hand.
I wish I could tell you things you didn’t know, but alas…I can only speak of what you know. In the future, I could return and report to you, but then, you would have already known. 🙂
The woman you will become
Did any of this speak to you or was this only for me? Please let me know 🙂
Month Scripture (NIV) John 13:07, “Jesus replied, “You do not realize now what I am doing, but later you will understand.”
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