I had another post planned, one that I have already put off two weeks in a row because a new idea came up. This is one reason why I try to write as much on the spot I can with new ideas.
But what just happened to me only about a minute ago gave me such assurance that I want to share it with you. I hope it speaks to you, if not as much as it did to me, just a little bit.
It’s been no secret since last year things have not been stable for my husband and me in regards to finances. A blessing is home life is more stable. When he got out of the military, we did find a place to move into in July. But with him starting class, and I, a housewife, who does not make any money, our budget has been tight.
God has taught me how to manage a tight budget. The problems come when other expenses arise, and when our housing allowance is cut because he is not taking a class for most of the month, etc. Last year, we still had quite a bit of money saved from the last paychecks to help with rent as we adjusted.
But, and I knew this summer would be harder, we do not have that security. We still have savings that will help for a little bit, but the rest is very up in the air.
We take so much of our want for granted that we lose focus on the things we need. When I was in a more secure footing, I didn’t think $3 was expensive, but I do now. I wouldn’t think $10 on garden stuff would be splurging, and I do now. Which is why I’m thankful my husband encouraged me to try planting some small seeds this summer. I didn’t think I would be able to because of our budget.
And yet, just today, God reminded me. “You know, neither one of you is seriously sick. You both have a roof over your heads. He is doing well in school. There is growth in writing both in the book, the blog and in the community. You can visit home.”
There are a number of things that, sure from the outside, so many of us take for granted, especially, if you’re like me, and are focused on the worry and the uncertainty. I believe that God will help grow these fruits, his schooling, my writing, and I do believe He will help prepare the way for my husband’s future job and the company he will work for.
It’s just right now it’s rocky. The wind is blowing and branches are swaying.
I’ve been working on writing outside more, in my PJ bottoms and long sleeved, “I wish you were coffee,” t-shirt nonetheless, I’m sure my neighbors may judge, but hey I’m outside and I’m comfortable. Today, just before I was going to work on the post I later delayed…I was fascinated by a little bird, about the size of a sparrow.
She was fluttering between the roofs of apartment buildings and the tree that faces me. I thought about how Christ promises us that God takes care of the birds and how much will He take care of us. This small bird sitting on a thin branch and the wind is rustling the leaves. Branches are going up and down, up and down, and she hops sometimes to the next thin branch, or she just stays put and enjoys the ride.
As I’m watching this, I reminded myself, “That’s what it means to be in the hand of God. We are His branches. We can sway, but we won’t break. We do not have to be afraid because He has us. Just like that little bird right now.” I looked from the branch, and my eyes followed the larger, sturdier branch holding that one, and looked all the way down to the trunk of the tree, where large roots held everything in place.
Tears fill my eyes, as I say, “That’s God.”
Blessings and opportunities are coming. God is teaching me in the murky waters and storms of worry and uncertainty. We see a month or the next year and maybe agonize about the future in its whole.
But the Lord, He has reminded me, as a Potter, He is focused on RIGHT now. Sure, He has plans for the future, but He knows the only way He is going to get that result is to work with what He has right now. That’s refinement.
If we do not live in these moments right now, we will look back and see needless worry and sleepless nights we have wondering what God was going to do. I’m not saying He is going to make me wealthy, I do not believe in that. I believe He can help stabilize our finances and provide for my family so we can do more for His kingdom.
I believe, even right now, there are things I can do, should do, and will do to help give glory to Him and encourage His people. Writing is one of them.
(NIV) Matthew 6:26, Look at the birds of the air; they do not sow or reap or store away in barns, and yet your heavenly Father feeds them. Are you not much more valuable than they?
Do you see God’s assurance despite uncertainty?
Month Scripture (NIV) Job 2:10, “Shall we accept good from God, and not trouble?”
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