Originally written July 2016
Scratches grow new on your wrist. Imprints of chains cut into flesh. Demonic spirits blend their voices into your own, blinding you to the truth.
“This failure is your fault.”
“You aren’t worth it.”
“You can’t change.”
“No one loves you.”
Thick poison continues to seep through every thought. Every new pain that radiates within your heart, you bear with the belief, “I deserve this.”
We Don’t Have To Believe The Lies
What lie this darkened world tells us! What deceit the unknown supernatural uses against us! We choose to believe in uncertain negative things we HAVE NOT seen! Yet, we struggle with believing in LOVE! This is the curse of sin. This is the precursor of death.
Success can be given. Achievement can be gained.
(NIV) Romans 8:24 “For in this hope we were saved. But hope that is seen is no hope at all. Who hopes for what they already have?”
Falling does not anchor us into the ground. There are choices to be made. We have free will. We don’t have to believe the lies.
A major lie among believers is that believers do not or cannot experience depression or dark thoughts. Fear that something is wrong with us if we experience depression. Almost similar to a shunning, people do not always know how to reach out. So instead of gaining help, we become lost. We become the background.
In all truth, yes indeed, there is something wrong with our relationship with Christ if we struggle with darkness. But this is darkness and negativity of any kind! We are not always strong, and any stress or weakness can be used against us. There is not a higher or lower way darkness excels. Instead, it is our own choice, our own character. Many issues arise from problems we hold onto.
There is a twisted addiction darkness gives off. Craving verification and attention to our story, our situation, and our life are so brutalized. Mentally it drives our center of focus. Topics in conversation are consumed by the negative world we live in. It doesn’t matter how often we try to feel justified by our pain. It is never enough.
(NIV) Job 21:25 “Another dies in bitterness of soul, never having enjoyed anything good.”
Pain Is Not Gain
The sympathy of others only feeds us and encourages us into darker places. But this is our choice. And darkness tends to blind us to the lie that we have no choice anymore. In this darkness, we have decided to release the reins of our hearts.
In this pain, we have decided to reinforce walls around ourselves. We choose to be the audience in which the speaker constantly berates us. A speaker who knows every struggle and every mistake while using it as reminding whispers,
“Do you remember? I do.”
“You’ll hurt them again.”
“You will fail.”
A false teaching the world gives us is, “pain is gain.” Why we continue to believe in the false preaching of this world instead of the truth has to baffle God.
(NIV) Isaiah 58:06 “Is not this the kind of fasting I have chosen: to loose the chains of injustice and untie the cords of the yoke, to set the oppressed free and break every yoke?”
There is no progress in pain (meaning directly from the pain itself). This is a lie. Progress comes from the choice WHILE we are experiencing pain. The lesson within the situation.
We struggle, but we struggle now moving forward. This is the difference and this is why pain gains nothing. In the end, pain is released. But if “progress” is gained from the false belief of sole pain, then the cause from which pain started is never mended (or given up). Pain remains because it was held onto to gain broken strength.
All we gained was another lie and more burdens we’ve held onto.
As a believer, we are called to be aware of spiritual deceit. We learn this through scripture.
(NLT) Ephesians 4:31 “Get rid of all bitterness, rage, anger, harsh words, and slander, as well as all types of evil behavior.”
Take note, scripture is not saying we are evil if we experience these behaviors. But, instead, these behaviors themselves are evil, they lead to death. To put it simply, evil is destruction. Linger in any of these behaviors and they will eat away at the heart and soul.
There Is Only One Who Understands Truly
(NIV) Proverbs 14:10 “Each heart knows its own bitterness and no one else can share its joy.”
Unforgiveness, bitterness, anger, and pain from experiences these come from the individual. Yes, others may sympathize or perhaps even empathize, however, these are all feelings and experiences lingering only on our path and our journey.
No one can take them or truly understand one hundred percent…well except One.
(B) Matthew 11:29-30 “Take My yoke upon you and learn from Me; for I am gentle and humble in heart, and you will find rest for your souls. For My yoke is easy and My burden is light.”
By the blood of Jesus Christ, He strengthens us. He gives us the confidence to put faith in Him instead of the darkness waiting to happen.
(NLT) 2 Corinthians 6:10 “Our hearts ache, but we always have joy. We are poor, but we given spiritual riches to others. We own nothing, and yet we have everything.”
Trusting in God when we can’t see is faith, but trusting in negativity (that hasn’t even happened) when we can’t see is doubt.
Jesus not only comforts us, but He teaches us how to be there and comfort others who struggle.
(NLT) 2 Corinthians 1:04 “He comforts us in all our troubles so that we can comfort others. When they are troubled, we will be able to give them the same comfort God has given us.”
It is human to struggle. It is in our nature to be brought against storms that knock us down. But we have a strength within. We have a Holy Spirit burning in our hearts. We have a Savior…Who saves!
Our timing is not God’s timing. We are weak, but He is strong. Weakness does not always have to be pain either. Simply giving up our own doubts and trusting Christ in the unseen. There is a reason He makes mountains move and demons tremble.
Trust Him, and don’t give up. 🙂
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