Even There Your Hand Will Guide Me | Flash Fiction

Today is a writing collab that Grace and I are doing. A few weeks ago, I had shared a scripture with Grace that really spoke to me as a teen. After we kept talking about the scripture, we were excited to collab together and write a piece inspired by the scripture, Psalm 139:09-10. Grace wrote her version of not only this scripture but the whole chapter which is awesome!! Please check out her post here


(Inspired by a true story)

Huddled in a corner, my shoulders shook. Arms wrapped around my knees. My head bent forward. I was sitting on the floor as tears fell down my face.

“I’ve gone too far,” my mind whispered. “I know I’m crossing the line. I know I’m going against what God wants me to do, and at this point I know I won’t be able to stop at this point. I can’t ask for forgiveness when I know I won’t stop. He doesn’t deserve that.”

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“I don’t deserve His love.”

“Lord, I understand if You don’t want me.”

It was after midnight and I was sixteen. An age where I was confused about a lot of things, and I did not have the strength or endurance to resist a particular temptation that had plagued me. Convinced there was no way I would break free, I struggled in torment believing this was the end of my relationship with God.

But I still loved Him.

I still cherished our talks. The guidance He always gave without a moment’s notice.

I would still talk to Him. I would continue reading and studying scripture. I would praise Him no matter. These truths I buried in my heart. “Even if You doesn’t want me because of this, I still want You.”

Hiding a cry that escaped my lips, I trembled at the thought of losing Him. I knew sin was separation, yet I felt defeated because the desire was great.

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It felt like I would never rise out of this.

Then the picture caught my eye…

If I rise on the wings of the dawn, if I settle on the far side of the sea, even there Your hand will guide me, Your right hand will hold me fast.” – Psalms 139:09-10 (NIV)

A freedom, a relief, I wasn’t quite sure. But in my heart, a barrier broke. He spoke to me so clearly.

Flowing down my face, tears fell with a wholeness. Immense peace lifted my soul. As if God was saying, “When you stray, I still see you. Where you are, I will be. There is nowhere you will ever go, that I won’t be.”

This day never left my mind. He continued to love me. He continued to help me grow. And the more I saw His hand in my life, the more I desired to give to Him. It was for this purpose and reason I was able to defeat temptation. My desire for the flesh and this world dwindled, and my desire for the Lord intensified like a fire fueled on in the night.

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This small scripture, this tiny message got me through a night in which I truly deserved to not feel the love of God. Yet, instead, He loved me through the storm.

He sought me when I was alone.

Even there His hand guided me.

If I rise on the wings of the dawn, if I settle on the far side of the sea, even there Your hand will guide me, Your right hand will hold me fast.” – Psalms 139:09-10 (NIV)


How does God reach you when you feel like He won’t?

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41 thoughts on “Even There Your Hand Will Guide Me | Flash Fiction

  1. I remember many times I felt this way, especially early in my walk with the Lord. Several passages or verses have comforted me at such times. This one is one of them, but there are several others. Here are a couple for anyone who might need to read them.

    Psalm 103:14 “For He knows our frame; He remembers that we are dust;”
    Psalm 23:4 – “Even though I walk through the valley of the shadow of death, You are with me…” and interestingly enough John 6:44 when Jesus said, “No one can come to me unless the Father who sent me draws him.”

    To me, it was a comfort to realize I never deserved His love and never can, and yet He drew me anyway.

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    1. ❤ ❤ amen!!!!!! Heather thank you so much for sharing these in case someone needs them. They are powerful!!! It is comfort to know His love runs deeper than anything or anyone we've met before, and so much bigger than we could possibly imagine. 🙂

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    1. 🙂 it was a flash fiction piece inspired by real events. I was sitting in the corner when I was 16, crying about how I knew I wasn’t doing what God wanted. A calendar picture hung right beside me, and it spoke deeply. ❤ I hope it speaks to others 🙂

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      1. It started when I was very young. I would not say often but as a child I did admire Jesus, when I had excueating painful eczema on my feet I always thought of what He went through. Gradually He encouraged me to go to Him in prayer. And by the time I was 13 I was hooked on having a relationship with Him! Praise God!!! 😍😍

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  2. I don’t think I ever feel like He won’t, but sometimes I feel like I don’t deserve it. He reaches out and does for me that same thing that He’s done so many times before, that thing that I haven’t noticed Him doing for a while, and it is such a joy and a relief to know that He is still leading me and speaking to me even though I’ve been distracted and not drawing as close to Him as I should.

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    1. Agreed! I once was convinced that God could not love me through my sin, as I still committed it because the wages of sin is death, and sin indeed can separate us from God. What I did not realize was we can so attracted to His peace and drawn to Him that we want to give up things of this world, it sometimes takes time, but it can happen! We must continually get to know Him, the more we know Him, and the more we see Him, the more we will be able to give up this world. I was trying to give up sin on my own, and I wasn’t able to do it. But when I started drawing close, reading His word daily, and truly accepting His power and ways over mine, He helped me let go of things naturally. I once had to fight against temptation and now its lost its grip on me because of Jesus Christ ❤ Praise the Lord for guiding us when we struggle and when we are distant!

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  3. Ahh!! I just wrote a post on this scripture today! 😁 It’s so cool how once you seek out a scripture passage, it seeks you out, too- or rather, God seeks you through that passage on your heart.

    Great post 💛

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  4. This is an amazing post, T.R. I like when you said, “He continued to love me. He continued to help me grow. And the more I saw His hand in my life, the more I desired to give to Him. It was for this purpose and reason I was able to defeat temptation. My desire for the flesh and this world dwindled, and my desire for the Lord intensified like a fire fueled on in the night.”

    God continues to love us even if we fall to sin and darkness. I can definitely agree with you in this post. If we as human beings hold Christ’s hand, He will guide us in truth and not the truth that the world continues to whisper into our ears.

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