In the last post, I explained how I felt like I had blasphemed the Holy Spirit and what went up to this point. There were a few things that happened which helped me break out of the cycle of these thoughts, and again, this is AFTER I cut out a lot of negativity.
Confess With Your Mouth
I was afraid to read about when the men blasphemed Christ.
We should never avoid scripture even if we think we are sinning. Mainly because we need understanding and clarity. God provides this in scripture.
God revealed to me in scripture that the men who blasphemed the Spirit did so with their mouths. They openly confessed what they believed, and they truly believed what they were saying.
When I realized this I had to look at my own heart.
When I talk about God, Christ, and the Holy Spirit verbally out loud it is never synonymous with these thoughts. I don’t actually believe and verbalize what these thoughts are saying. In fact, I act the opposite.
I encourage people to go to Christ and to seek out the Holy Spirit because He is the Comforter. I believe it because I’ve seen Him and felt Him at work.
(NIV) Romans 10:08-09, “But what does it say? “The word is near you; it is in your mouth and in your heart,” that is, the message concerning faith that we proclaim: If you declare with your mouth, “Jesus is Lord,” and believe in your heart that God raised Him from the dead, you will be saved.”
When you look at those who condemned Christ and His Spirit, they were numb to the truth. They didn’t care. What they said outwardly, they believed in their heart.
Confession Among Believers
Soon afterward, God provided an opportunity for me to Skype a group of two believers I know and care for dearly. The one friend I had already confessed my thoughts to, but I knew I needed to confess and be more open about everything that I had kept hidden.
I cried so much pouring out my fears against the truth. It was so hard for me to believe that with these thoughts, I still had the love of God because He knew the truth, He knows my heart, as David wrote about, and I still felt defeated. One of the ladies, who was a mom figure for us, gave me very comforting words and reminded me of how Satan will use fear against us. But in Christ, we don’t have to have fear.
We prayed out loud for each other, and I highly encourage you to pray out loud, confess out loud, God receives glory through outward confession.
I had felt relief after confessing everything, yet, the battle was still there, not as much, but it was. And then…God provided a sermon that tore up any other lie my “thoughts” encouraged me to believe.
The Fear Of Condemnation
I was afraid of watching the sermon because I still had a great fear within me that by watching the sermon I would be condemned. I would see that I was guilty.
However, God knew I needed it, and the truth of His word blessed me.
Sermon On The Unpardonable Sin by Tim Conway
Pastor Conway is a wonderful preacher and he digs deep. He preaches holiness and truth. If you are struggling with this issue, I highly recommend this sermon because it pokes holes in all of the lies for those who truly love Christ, and that fear that they are condemned with these thoughts.
After listening to the sermon, I felt free. Surprised at the deception of the thoughts. I’ve realized, it does not matter how hard I try to control myself.
It’s all in the Lord and His truth. Resting under His Shadow and beneath His wing is the best thing I can choose actively to do.
The Medicine No One Talks About
Whenever we are struggling with something it is important we examine our heart, spirit, and mind. This is the medicine people do not talk about, especially regarding our spirit.
Are we harboring:
- anger against a person, situation, or the past
- jealousy or comparison
- judgment of others (we may feel justified when we are wrong, look at Job’s friends they thought they were being helpful.)
Are we distancing ourselves from God in:
- scripture reading & meditation
- gathering with other believers
Spiritual warfare is a real thing. It can hinder people from drawing closer to the Lord. This can show up even in physical illness, again not saying medicine is not helpful, but if our spirit is damaged it can do a lot. Our vulnerabilities will be used against us.
It is important to be aware of what we are choosing to expose ourselves to because when we are distracted and not focused on the Lord, at any given time, yes, that can be an opportunity for an attack.
Be wary of these things:
- lust/sexual desire, including self-pleasure
- supernatural (ghosts, spirits, etc)
- idols/false gods
- sexual jokes
- taking God’s name in vain
From my experience and every single person I’ve talked to so far, when you cut out these elements from your life, negativity has less of a hold on you, and yes, YOUR MIND!
Your stock entertainment may be a lot less. Your sense of accomplishment (games) may be taken. But… this is how you battle spiritually. Change your heart, repent of the things you are harboring and pray for the Lord to reveal any hidden sin you may not be aware of. (Psalm 19:12) This is how you fight back and protect your own mind.
Medicine absolutely can help. But our choices to other things in our own lives can help as well, sometimes, better.
What is YOUR AUTHORITY on what you watch, what you listen to, what you read, and what you do?
- Are you seeing nudity, encouragement for lust, or other things that are inappropriate?
- Are you hearing profanity, talk of idols or other gods, the Lord’s name being taken in vain?
- Are you partaking of things that harm your body? Are you hurting your body in other ways that are not good either physically or what you eat? (This could even be lack of hydration or sleep)
- How often are you seeing the love of Christ in what you watch?
- How often are you hearing the love of Christ in what you listen to?
- How often are you treating your body as the temple to the Living God?
- How often are you surrounded by those encouraging you to draw closer to the Lord?
- Most importantly, how are you spending your daily moments with the Lord?
Could we really explain to the Lord why we choose anything not associated with Him? It’s easier to make excuses and try to hide behind what we do, but we need to be honest. If it is of God it draws us closer, if it is not…
I hope this encourages you to look at your heart with the Lord, at scripture, and what your life, your relationship with Christ is like.
We can always grow more. There is hope. Do not be discouraged.
Was this helpful? Have you experienced anything similar?
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