I’m sure everyone has those days. Restlessness. Boredom. Sadness. Restraint on anger is less than usual. Today was one of those days for me. Flustered and frustration definitely wanted to invite themselves over, and I simply do not have time for that.
Sometimes I get like this in the winter, but it was a beautiful sunny day outside.
“What’s wrong with me?”
Well, it doesn’t matter, I concluded. Jesus is the same, has been the same, and will always be the same for eternity. Therefore, I put on my headphones and started praising Him. I needed to be in His presence. I need to praise Him despite the negative feelings. He’s bigger than all of this.
I started creating different praise songs for the Lord in college. I suppose you could call them, “prayer songs.” I’ll listen to a piece of music and I’ll make up words that go along with it. Worship with the Lord has always been more intimate this way.
Today was no different, but sometimes during these moments there will be pieces of these prayers that really strike a chord with me. Sometimes I will be inspired to share portions of these moments. The recent post I Write With Blood Ink (So Be It) was one such inspired post.
It is only during these moments of prayer with the Lord that clarity in which I’ve never had before comes to me. Words that I can’t find in my heart otherwise speak for me.
Sometimes I’ll envision a picture during these moments. Last year I wrote the flash fiction piece The Lamp Post and this also was inspired by the Lord during this worship.
Today, I had another picture and prayer on my heart. It was so strong I felt the need to share it with you. I may write another piece on this eventually. But I just wanted to share the overall message and imprint it left on me.
At some point, I started praying to God about how darkness was consuming my temple. How the flesh was ripping into me. I started asking Him to help me flip the tables over in my own temple (soul). That nothing is about coins or gain, but Him. For Christ to tear down my curtains and veil. For Him to wash anew.
Of course, I understand His grace and what that does through His salvation. However, I want to be real here. We know people who were righteous in the Bible had hard days. No one escapes the flesh trying to overtake the spirit. Scripture tells us there is war, and it is far bigger than what we tend to see anyway.
(NIV) Ephesians 6:12, “For our struggle is not against flesh and blood, but against the rulers, against the authorities, against the powers of this dark world and against the spiritual forces of evil in the heavenly realms.”
We need to desperately be clinging to Him. That our cries, our praise of sacrifice is a pleasant incense, an aroma, to Him. During our tough days, be it something physical is going on in our life, or maybe it’s mental or emotional, these are the days to make sure we are not turning from Jesus.
Fight the darkness by singing praises to Him. Look up at the Savior who died on a cross looking down at the world with love. Who resurrected, keeping His promise, and who that much more will keep His promise to us today. HE IS WITH US!
I know people mean well when they hear someone has a bad day or is going through something and the answer is pray about it.
My friend, as someone who has been having some down days mentally, I tell you, not just pray, BUT PRAISE! Cry your heart out to Him. Who cares if He answers immediately or not! It’s not about that! It’s not about a quick answer! I don’t care what people say or what their reasoning is!
This is about time with Him and Jesus, our King, being glorified! This is what matters!
You know sometimes He brings us to our knees just so we will stay with Him a little longer than when we feel secure in the flesh. Do not just go to Him so you “feel better” and walk away like nothing happened.
Embrace the Refiner and His fire.
He helped me pray, “Become the coal in my temple.” And that simple sentence was so powerful it broke me.
(NIV) Isaiah 6:05-07, “”Woe to me!” I cried. “I am ruined! For I am a man of unclean lips, and I live among a people of unclean lips, and my eyes have seen the King, the LORD Almighty.” Then one of the seraphim flew to me with a live coal in his hand, which he had taken with tongs from the altar. With it, he touched my mouth and said, “See, this has touched your lips; your guilt is taken away and your sin atoned for.”
On dark days when we feel like nothing is possible, THE IMPOSSIBLE IS CROWNED and HE stands beside us. His fire can consume and purify all things. It might take time. It may not be what we think. But He always has a plan, and He will set forth what He wants to happen. His words always remain true. Remember that!
On my dark days, I have the comfort that Jesus is still the Light and is still my Strength!
Has God ever laid things on your heart during prayer?
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