There are moments in our life that make us stand still and ponder. Moments that after they happen, we know we will always remember.
Today, was one of those days.
Writing out the check for rent always makes me nervous, every single time. Actually, it is the dread that usually builds up before writing the check. But as soon as the task is done I feel better. This is getting easier and I really think it is the Holy Spirit. He is our Comforter for a reason, and He is always with us.
Through the anxiety, fear, uncertainty, and everything else, He’s there. He’s got this.
It just so happened today my husband kindly pulled out some dollar bills for me so I could put that on our laundry card. I’d have to go to the laundry facility to put the money on and we’d be set.
Mail check. Put money on card. Got it!
I knew mailing out the check sooner than later is best. It’s one of the best ways to combat my anxiety. DO IT rather than push it aside. Pushing things aside like that always make the dread worse, and I can do all things through Christ who strengthens me.
He’s got this.
Out the door, I went on a beautiful autumn day.
It didn’t feel like autumn more like a really warm spring day, which is probably why spring and autumn are my favorite seasons. Sunshine galore!
I dropped off the mail, and then took care of my card. Done! But…not quite. I lingered around wondering if there was a way I could enjoy the sunshine more. There has been a pond near this area that since we have moved here I’ve wanted to go to, but I just never had. I thought, why not?
Turns out I made the right choice! It was SOOOO much nicer than I realized and really quiet, no one else was there. Blue skies, ducks in the water, and ripples from the blowing wind. Sun beating down on me.
I was content.
Rarely do I get moments like this and I know I need to take more of them. It also is the perfect way to spend time with God, too.
Taking out my phone, I began to listen to a sermon in preparation for my Bible Study this week. Sermon: A Friday Night in the Promise Land by Eric Ludy
This sermon is so powerful! He speaks about how we get caught up, as Americans, in our indulgences in pleasing our flesh. He talked about stories of people who were locked up for Jesus, and yet, during this time of being locked up, they grew stronger than ever in Christ! Then he tells his story of being asked to evangelize during Mardi Gras. He didn’t want to, and yet, gets pulled into being around the group of people as they build a wooden cross that would stand in the middle of this street. The idea was for one person to stand beside the cross on the street during a Friday night. Wickedness is all around.
To many Christians, this would be uncomfortable. *Raises hand
He didn’t want to but eventually finds himself in the position of standing by the cross, and when he does, he feels deeply intimate with the Lord. He was ridiculed and mocked but he says he felt the truth of the Bible being unlocked. The desire to live for Jesus stronger than anything. Everything else didn’t matter, except living for Jesus!
Right when he spoke of the cross being built, this is when I noticed my shadow, the feature image for today.
Quite frankly, my breath was taken away.
I’m listening to this sermon about a man wrapping his arm around the cross, and my shadow looks like a cross is standing right beside me.
LITTLE DISCLAIMER: I know some people are very much against ANY image of Jesus or a cross because the real Christ isn’t in an image and Jesus isn’t on a cross anymore. Totally agree! But I think the cross, at least, is a reminder of what He bore, and that reminder is very powerful. In a world, in which, I take so much for granted, I need that reminder.
Oh, and I didn’t say this, but this shadow was an answered prayer. I didn’t realize that until I started writing this post.
“Lord, will You make Yourself known to me?” This was yesterday’s prayer. I mean, how much more evidence does my weak and fragile heart need to see HE IS LISTENING!
He literally “painted” me a picture.
I desire to see more of Him, and less than 24 hrs, He’s like, “Here, I AM, but kid, I’ve ALWAYS been here. I AM here.”
There was a part of the sermon where Pastor Ludy speaks of a woman who lived 45 years in China. She makes the comment to Americans that while we may have a bed and a room to ourselves, she knows the grace of God. (Not saying Americans can’t know the grace of God, but we tend to not know enough of it, nor live it daily!)
In my own life, I’m often afraid of trouble and uncertainty. I value control and stability, which, yes, these things appease my flesh. Truthfully, when I feel at ease, these things have no real motivation or encouragement to my spirit or walk with Jesus. So many of us are looking for an easy way out. If you read Pilgrim’s Progress, you’ll find the easy way, what makes us comfortable, will always lead to destruction.
Seeing the shadow today makes me want others to see Him in me. To show Jesus and talk about Jesus to others. To keep growing in Him through the uncomfortable. My flesh seeks comfort, but my spirit seeks Him. He deserves more of my time, that definitely has been on my heart these last couple of weeks.
The cross shows how much we mean to Him, and how close He is to us, how WILLING He is to be there for us, even in the uncertain. I know many of us pray for answers of ease in America, and there is nothing wrong with that. I do, too. But it’s important we really focus on feeling/hearing/seeing the Lord, being with Him, and desiring Him more than anything. Growth is made in trials.
In the quiet, in the stillness. He is.
In the quiet, in the stillness, He’s got this.
In the quiet, in the stillness, He’s got me.
Thank You, Lord, Jesus, for always being there!
(All photos are mine)
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