I Never Gave Myself A Break Like This In Three Years

I am officially back from visiting family for the holidays, and it’s certainly felt like a whirlwind. Every time the new year comes along I can’t help but reflect back. I don’t know if this means 2020 will be a unique year, but it definitely started off different.

Since 2017, when I’ve gone home for Christmas, I’ve worked hard at trying to have the following weeks prepared with posts. This past year I did not get as far as I wanted.

In 2017, I took my laptop with me, and I wrote during my “break” which…wasn’t a break, really.

In 2018, I had planned and steadily worked on posts, sometimes writing 6 a day to help me not have to worry about writing posts during my visit. This was accomplished and I did not have to write anything while visiting.

But in 2019?

… I learned to let go. I couldn’t do as much as I wanted, and I had to be okay with it. Actually, from May 2018 all the way through 2019,  I’ve been working on giving what I think needs to be done over to the Lord. Steadily, I’m searching and learning on what it means to rest in the Spirit like Mary AND serve actively like Martha. 

There are so many temptations for bloggers getting tripped up in this. Stats being prime. Views. Followers. Then the questions of what are we providing to our audience that will help us continue to grow and to keep those numbers?

Frankly, as a Christian who blogs for Jesus Christ, I CANNOT care about this. I can’t focus on that desire. This is easier said than done for many, but let it, at least, be said. 

The Bible should never be boring to us, period. However, we live in a world FULL of entertainment and catering to our feelings. I still think it is very important that Christian bloggers connect scripture to life and help people not just hear scripture but give tools in understanding it. Yet, in the past, I think I was wrong in some of the ways I discussed how people approach scripture on their blogs. Maybe not on paper, but definitely on an internal level were my thoughts and feelings wrong. 

My break has allowed me:

  • to desire to write
  • to feel the temptation of wanting to step away because I was comfortable not writing
  • to feel the ache of not writing
  • and feel the rebuke of not writing

This is all about Jesus. I need to write for Jesus. Not trends. Not for potential people, meaning the “future” numbers I may be tempted seeing. Not for anyone else, but for Him. This doesn’t mean trends can’t be used for Him, just that we understand the reason of why we use them 😉 . 

When I write for Jesus everything else comes in line because this is about His will. In America or other places where we are given the luxury to not have the concern of losing our life every day because we are a follower of Jesus, we REALLY need to step it up for Him. We can do this if we ask Him and if He is with us.

Time is short, and one day, everyone, everywhere, I believe WILL be accountable for being a Christian or not in their country. 

I don’t think most of us are ready for those consequences. I don’t think if we were about to lose our lives or be tempted with others being killed because we won’t renounce Jesus Christ that most of us could bear it. To see our spouse or children get killed or to lose our own life, we don’t walk with Jesus like we have that concern every day.    

I think we are caught up in life, our future, and the plans we have for ourselves. That’s what we are encouraged to do, after all. Me. Me. Me. Prepare for this dream and this future. I’m not saying it’s wrong, exactly. Rather… are we really focused on what God is doing and what HE wants even if it turns our world upside down? 

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Tomorrow is NEVER a guarantee. I’m working on focusing on the will of God and thanking Him for every single thing, especially the little stuff, that He provides and allows to happen in my life. There are a lot of things that tempt me with fear, especially with this year, however, there are so many things God does every day for me I can be grateful for.

(ESV) James 4:12-17, “Come now, you who say, “Today or tomorrow we will go into such and such a town and spend a year there and trade and make a profit”— yet you do not know what tomorrow will bring. What is your life? For you are a mist that appears for a little time and then vanishes. Instead you ought to say, “If the Lord wills, we will live and do this or that.” As it is, you boast in your arrogance. All such boasting is evil. So whoever knows the right thing to do and fails to do it, for him it is sin.”

Focusing on what He has given and gives to me daily reminds me that He is the author of my faith. My body, my spirit, and my mind cannot produce faith, only Jesus. Therefore, my eyes need to be not on myself and what I want, but on Him.

This post is slightly all over the place with my thoughts, and that’s partly the point. I have a lot of topics that got brought to my heart I want to share. Truths that are hard to hear…and will be hard to write.

I pray the Lord takes this blog further this year, whatever He wills in the material.  

For everyone who has joined me another year on Inside Cup, I praise the Lord for you. For the opportunity, we can praise Him together. May we keep growing in Him.

Monthly Scripture- (NIV) Psalm 85:01, “You, LORD, showed favor to Your land; You restored the fortunes of Jacob.”

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28 thoughts on “I Never Gave Myself A Break Like This In Three Years

  1. So good to see your posts again! You recently commenting on my post about resting in the Spirit like Mary AND serving actively like Martha, as you mention in this post. This was something that stuck with me, and I looked into this story more closely. Life is about finding a balance and, while God should be the center of our lives, learning the best ways to balance serving and resting is a crucial yet, personally speaking, the difficult part of life. Blessings!

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    1. Amen!

      Yeah, it’s nice to be back! I’m learning there are things to do while resting that still help us grow in God. I used to think all rest related to being lazy, and that’s not true. I’m still convicted of this and working on it.

      I’ll have to get the podcast link and share it 🙂

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      1. I meant rest doesn’t have to be lazy and doing nothing 🙂 slowing down can still be productive 💗 Painting while listening to a sermon or Christian video, podcast. Worshipping. Reading scripture.

        There is another podcast SetApartGirl does on entertainment that really spoke to me. She and her husband took a vacation in a cabin for a full days and they mainly watched movies. But at the end of it, she wasn’t really rested. She said finding rest in Jesus was what gave her energy, and that challenged me.

        Not that movies, naps, or stuff like that is bad. But true rest is found in Jesus. That was powerful and adapting more sermons, worship, prayer, Bible reading, Christian videos in my rest periods I have experienced such a difference and more energy. It’s incredible. 😊💗

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      2. I totally understand this, but I have come to realize that it is okay to engage in hobbies such as hiking, reading, etc. I am a firm believer that through these things, God can give you signs and messages. It helps you connect with others and, in turn, promotes a healthy Spirit. In these moments, you can find rest in Jesus, knowing that He is always with you. I hope this makes sense and is seen as an extension of your response. 🙂

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  2. I’m so glad you gave yourself a real break from blogging! 🙂 I’ve done that over the years – taken a “break” that actually ended up being I’m not on WordPress or currently posting but I have scheduled posts lined up and I’ll be writing the whole time I’m gone. 😂 It was less of a break and more of a different way of blogging lol!! I did appreciate it but it was not a break. I wouldn’t have thought there were different kinds of hiatuses but there are for blogging.
    The one thing I absolutely love about taking time off from blogging, writing, post planning, etc., is getting SO inspired to come back! I’ve done that different times recently – posted a little, then left, came back again, changed things up, repeat – because I’ve been transitioning and learning about myself and what kinds of blogs I’m ready to author and write blog posts for. There were so many times over the past few months that I thought I was ready for this big change, but the Lord knew when I would be ready and I’m so thankful for all the time He allowed me to have learning about my relationship with Him and how I want to live. That’s something I’ll share more about soon, which I can’t wait for! 😊💕
    So yeah, I went off on a tangent but anyway I’m so glad you gave yourself time away. You’ll definitely have a lot more to blog about now! I can’t wait for those posts! 😊💙✨

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    1. Thanks. I like having things scheduled and then not blogging when possible. But this was different not having a schedule ready and just accepting it. You’re right, there are a lot of different ways we can take breaks. And you’re also right that the inspiration kept flowing. Today’s post with the apple blossom was inspired over the break and it was powerful to write.

      Can’t wait to see your post! I just had a dream about you with your new look on your blog and you discussing the Lord’s timing versus your own.

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      1. You’re welcome ❤ Agreed – having the work out of the way usually makes it easier to relax on break! 🙂 That’s awesome!

        Wow really?? I was just talking with my mom about the Lord’s timing yesterday 😳 I touched on it a tiny bit in my first post back on The Expressive Life, but I’ve been thinking about it more than I’ve been writing about it. That’s amazing!! I’m really looking forward to sharing my story in all its fullness! 😊 The Lord has so much to share through it!

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