I Didn’t Know Much As A Child When It Came To Jesus | Life Story

I realize that I do not always talk about myself on my blog. I will sprinkle in snippets or pieces of experiences but I do not really go over them. I have many experiences in my life that I can use to point to Jesus, and I want to. I hope by sharing these stories you can see His hand in my life, and how far along I’ve come.

When I was younger, I grew up believing in the sinner’s prayer. If you have been around my blog, you will know I do not believe in the sinner’s prayer like I used to.

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I don’t think I fully realized repentance as a child, even though when I was a teen, up to most of my 20s I thought I did…

In 2016, one of the first posts I wrote talked about how I gave my life to Jesus as a child, at age four. I remember this day. Summer, beautiful outside, I was by my swing set and I “gave my life to Christ.” I rushed into the house and told my mom who was washing dishes.

Now, while I truly believe something started that day, I don’t believe I knew what I thought I once did. 

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I Didn’t Repent Like I Thought

Having an enormous imagination, which apparently is common for kids, I did exaggerate and lie. In fact, in elementary, I once lied to my childhood best friend that I told my entire neighborhood this “secret word” she came up with for our club. I didn’t, but I was curious to see what her reaction would be. 

She got upset. But then I can’t remember exactly why, but when two random girls walked past us I just blurted out, “THE PASSWORD IS RUBBER!” (Proverbs 22:24)

Well, my poor friend got so infuriated she grabbed my shirt by the neck (by the way, she is a really sweet girl and by no means violent) and attempted to push me on the blacktop.

This was between ages 6 to 9 years old. I knew that lying was wrong, but it was fun..and sometimes got me out of trouble. During that time, not understanding true repentance, if I “felt” I needed to reconnect with God I would just kinda go over the sinner’s prayer again. But I think just by me lying continuously showed I didn’t really grasp what it meant to follow Jesus.

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I Didn’t Know What I Thought I Did

I had head knowledge. I was in Bible Quizzing. I knew the Sunday School stories and Bible School stories. Jonah. Noah. Jesus. Moses. Solomon. David. Etc. Etc. Etc. You know the list. I sang children’s songs. “I’m in the Lord’s Army, YES SIR!” But I didn’t fully connect the dots. That took time.

When I was a teen, and in most of my 20s, I thought it was cool I “gave my life to Christ” at age 4. I thought that showed and validated how far I had come with Christ. But you know what…numbers mean nothing. Experience means nothing. Christ is everything. Growth and sanctification matter, not the amount of time it took between the two! Saying that I’ve been “saved” for over 20 years means nothing to me now… why…because I wasn’t growing every single day. Numbers DO NOT MATTER ONLY JESUS! 

I used to think Heaven was a hospital with gigantic band-aids. I’d sit on my swing set and think about Heaven and Hell. I remember thoughts of…well, I can live my life and then right before I die I can ask Jesus to forgive me and He will. (Hold up, didn’t I say the sinner’s prayer…) These were thoughts I had as a kid, thoughts adults have now about being “saved.”

There were additional thoughts, too… ones I’m not proud of. Ones I don’t think I’ve shared with anyone up until now.

If I felt someone was particularly mean to me or hurtful, I’d wish for them to go to Hell just so they would “understand how I felt.”

God forgive me! I gave those thoughts over to Christ a couple years ago when the memory came to mind. I truly had no idea what Hell was like or meant as a kid. I didn’t understand the depth of eternal punishment and torture. 

I understand now. We should never wish anyone to go to Hell. NO ONE!

When I turned 10, I made the decision to stop lying. I remember telling my childhood best friend and she was relieved but understandably skeptical. Then one day, she meant to do good by telling the class how I used to lie all the time…but then changed. I was mortified, embarrassed and cried about it. xD My past sin revealed…

But hey, our actions have consequences. This is part of life.

And God can use anything for His glory and testimony. 

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What is something you misunderstand about Jesus as a child?

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14 thoughts on “I Didn’t Know Much As A Child When It Came To Jesus | Life Story

  1. Amen! God definitely can use anything for His glory!

    Funny story….when I was young, maybe 5 or 6 years old, I used to think God went back on His word about never sending a flood again. That’s what the rainbow meant, right? So why were areas of the world still flooding??? Ahahaha. I realize later on that God promised He wouldn’t send a flood to cover the WHOLE earth again.

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  2. Thanks for sharing. I think I was actually saved at a young age, but I wasn’t truly submitted to Christ. I’d pick and choose when to ‘obey’. Later I felt terrible for those years of sin, but I believe God is patient and even then He was showing me mercy by letting me suffer just enough for my disobedience, but not letting go of me. And now He is showing me how much he loves me. Just NOW am I truly understanding the beauty of GRACE. While we were yet sinners, Christ died for US. We can rest in knowing that he loves us and forgives us because we are his children.

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    1. He is patient for sure! I always thought I was saved early, now, I’m not so sure. Either way, He led me to grow in Him, truly repent from sin, and I’ve grown so much. So important we instruct young ones with right understanding because it can be confusing.

      Being saved isn’t just saying a prayer. It’s living like Jesus and that goes for kids, too. I didn’t fully realize that. I thought I had control over sins, too. We dont.

      But praise the Lord for conviction! He helps transforms us. ❤

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  3. I can relate! For most of my life, I was baptized with water but not with the Spirit…had no idea what I was missing ’til I dove into scripture and God started pruning me and molding me big time. I am really “a new creation” compared to a few years ago.

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    1. Amen! Things definitely started changing for me at age 13. God started to really work on me, but even then, I still clung to the flesh, and that really held me back. He taught me so much, and ministered so much to me, which I am forever grateful for. However, what I once prided myself on, thinking that I was “so mature” and “knew so much” well, those things don’t matter. Jesus matters. I struggled so much trying to feel validated that I was missing the point.

      It does make me want to open up more about my struggles as a Christian teen and wanting deeper discussion about the Bible and Jesus because frankly I think for many teens church is for show, or entertainment. Kids do not need that.

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  4. I’m curious, T. R., do you know when you were saved? I actually have no idea when I was saved which usually surprises people. 😅 I KNOW that I am saved; I confess with my mouth and life that Jesus is Lord and believe in my heart that God raised Him from the dead. The fruit of my life bears witness. (That feels so prideful to say but… it’s true. 😅) But due to my own confusion regarding the sinner’s prayer when I was growing up, I literally have no idea when the “moment” I was saved was. I was just curious if it’s the same for you. 🙂

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    1. I know when I was 13 I started to grow with Christ. I believe that is when I started experiencing the Holy Spirit. I felt deeper and connected with Him. Like something changed.

      There was still a particular sin in my life but there was conviction, too. Though it took many years for me to get rid of it, truly and surrender.

      It is through Jesus we can hear the truth and surrender. I was able to hear the truth at a young age and look up to Him at a young age. I believe something started at age 4, but I can’t say I was saved.

      I have different moments at different ages I think of. But at the same time, the gift of salavation is nothing we do, it’s what Christ does. There was fruit, I believe. But I had a lot to grow from as well.

      So yeah. I don’t have a particular age really and it doesn’t matter. 🙂 Not anymore.

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      1. That is so similar to my own experience. I know that the decisions I made when young were significant and were the start of a kind of relationship with God. But I can’t say that I was saved then.

        It bothered me for a while that I didn’t have a “moment” I could point to. But like you said, now I know that’s okay. I’m not saved through an experience. I’m saved through the precious blood of Jesus, applied to my soul.

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      2. Yes! ❤ Salvation is through belief in Christ. There's nothing we can do to earn it. But repentance, surrender, sanctification, and fruit of the Holy Spirit all reflect what has taken place. Praise Jesus!

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  5. Awesome post. Would love to hear more of these stories T. R. Personally, I believe at that young age, though saying the sinners prayer and attending Sunday School may not necessarily save you, it gradually plays a part in your decision to accept Christ at an older age especially when you come to full understanding of the scriptures.

    2 Timothy 3:15 “And that from a child thou hast known the holy scriptures, which are able to make thee wise unto salvation through faith which is in Christ Jesus.”

    Recently, God taught me from this scripture that children who are exposed to bible stories and more sunday school teachings at an early age are imparted with wisdom to make that decision to follow Christ, you never know when, but some can be saved at that age and some later.

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    1. Growing up in knowledge of Jesus is important and can be a great anchor. It points kids to the truth. Parents are told in Proverbs to train a child up in the way they should go.

      Ultimately, Jesus is the One who helps believers hear the truth and He is the author of faith.

      I have some ideas on which stories to cover next, so thanks for the interest!!

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