When I opened up in my post Where I Am Mentally & How You Can Pray For Me I received a lot of comforting words and many people encouraging me to keep going to Jesus. I want to thank you all so much for taking the time to respond and encourage me. It’s very appreciated. Some of you shared some advice and concern about if I should consider taking a break or stepping aside completely from the blog. I want to share here why I know that is not the right option for me.
The day I wrote this post, I also worked on about four other posts as well. Which I haven’t done really in a few months. It felt like I was doing what I needed to do, and I just needed to stop allowing the enemy to win.
There have been a few posts I’ve worked on already but haven’t posted, and I think part of it was I was running away. When I get overwhelmed I often want to go into hiding mode. Now, please understand, I was not overwhelmed by blogging itself. I think I was struggling with a few things.
My Struggles Started In March
March sometimes is a burnout month for me, but this year, there was certainly more to it than just that.
First, COVID changed our routines. I often wrote when my husband was at work or school. With COVID that routine has completely changed, and the times I get to write by myself aren’t what they once were. This has been an adjustment. I’m learning something the Lord taught me while we lived in Florida. Be grateful for what you are given and use it to its full advantage while you have the opportunity.
Second, because I was not following a basic routine of when to write, I think this took a toll. Having a routine can be very healthy for you and your body. I’ve been bad at creating and keeping routines. But this week I started to work on getting up earlier, something I have struggled with dearly, and so far I have been consistent almost a week in. (Please pray my body keeps adjusting to this routine.)
Third, I’ve been praying a lot these past few weeks, but I wasn’t “lean not on your own understanding. Acknowledge Him in all your ways,” I was not walking forward in the Lord when it came to blogging as much I needed to. I relied a lot on how I FELT and not what I know God has called me to do. God has done SOOO MUCH to help me learn through blogging. He has used the blog posts to help others. God can break the bondage I was struggling in. I just needed to walk forward in His truth regardless of how I felt because as I shared, once I actually was in front of the computer, I was fine. (Proverbs 3:5-6)
Fourth, I was struggling with fearing people’s responses. I will have periods that as soon as the notifications light up I have a sense of dread. I do not write easy topics a lot of the time, and people are going to have thoughts on it. Being challenged in what I think and write is not easy… and for Christians. being challenged actually is a GREAT thing. But it is an adjustment for our flesh, pride especially, again, a GOOD thing!
It helps us study more, as we should. We can learn other perspectives from where people are coming from in their comments. When answering others, some responses might need some proper studying behind it, and looking at scriptures referenced in a different light. We need the context of scripture. We need to understand the other positions people might have. It helps us strengthen our understanding of the Word of God. It gives us time to pray for others and ourselves. It helps us grow, and it can be a way to help others learn new things, be witnessed to, encourage others, learn what it means to disagree in kindness, and learn how to be humble because no, we are not going to be right 100% of the time.
Studying outside of blogging happens a lot more. I’ve been learning some Christian Apologetics, how to defend our faith. Currently, I started reading Mere Christianity by C.S. Lewis. I’ve also started to study some false teachings/religions because when you learn how to refute false teachings with scripture in proper context, you also learn a lot about the Bible as you study. It’s really interesting. Also, I’ve been enjoying listening to Melissa Doughtery’s series on Jehovah’s Witnesses. This series covers a lot of issues cults in general have. Some are quite long, so feel free to break it up, and maybe take notes.
- Part 1– Why Bother Reaching Out To Jehovah’s Witnesses
- Part 2– Mind Control: Entering Into the Mind Of A Jehovah’s Witness
- Part 3- Jehovah’s Witness Theology: Talking Tips, JW Terms, What’s The Anointed And Great Crowd?
Getting Back Into The Saddle
While I adjusted to these changes I took a step back from writing on heavier topics as I prepared and studied. Next week, I will have a clarity post on godly living and legalism, which is a result of this post: What Is Godly/Holy Living | Am I Living A Defiled Life? The post next week is a condensed version, though it might still seem long to some because it’s not 400-600 words.
Again, thank you all for your prayers, encouragement, and support during this time. May the Lord continue to guide you to His Son, Jesus. Praying for you, too. 🙂
Community Prayer for June 2020
Monthly Scripture – (NKJ) Psalm 85:08, “I will hear what God the Lord will speak, for He will speak peace to His people and to His saints; but let them not turn back to folly.”
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