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Thank You All For The Encouragement & Prayers (I Want To Clarify Why I Publicly Recanted)

Last week, I shared a post in which I apologized from sharing bad theology on this blog. After receiving some comments, I thought I would like to address a particular concern I had. (No one else may have had it, I just want to share my thoughts today, maybe someone needs to hear this.)

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No one said it was wrong to repent. But some of the support I received made me feel like I didn’t have to, and I just want to clarify a little more as to why I needed to publicly address issues.

(ESV) 2 Corinthians 7:10, “For godly grief produces a repentance that leads to salvation without regret, whereas worldly grief produces death.”

For anyone who is concerned, I’m not over here constantly feeling guilty. 🙂 I am okay! I have turned over these sins to the cross and I know Jesus bore my sins while I was a sinner. I have sought His forgiveness and I am so grateful He has opened my eyes, like a healing balm, to the truth.

  • (ESV) Romans 5:08, “but God shows his love for us in that while we were still sinners, Christ died for us.”
  • (ESV) Romans 6:12-13, “Let not sin therefore reign in your mortal body, to make you obey its passions. Do not present your members to sin as instruments for unrighteousness, but present yourselves to God as those who have been brought from death to life, and your members to God as instruments for righteousness.“
  • (ESV) Romans 12:01, “I appeal to you therefore, brothers, by the mercies of God, to present your bodies as a living sacrifice, holy and acceptable to God, which is your spiritual worship.”

That being said, I have a strong conviction to protect my readers. I have, what I hope, is righteous anger that people in ignorance and in emotion are not manipulated by false teachers and false teaching. I am grieved that I was deceived by these methods and lies. Sadly, I encouraged the same deception I was under, but I am so hopeful and grateful for the Lord and His truth that sets us free.

A Christian will be convicted of sin in his or her life. We are not to be under the bondage of sin and we are not to continue in sin. (Note: I am not saying we do not sin. I am saying a Christian is convicted of sin and a Christian repents from sin.) In fact, Jesus gives us the Comforter, the Holy Spirit and He helps us be convicted of sin, righteousness, and the judgment to come. (John 16:08)

We are to love the Lord our God with all of our heart, soul, mind, and strength. I want to, at some point, dive into these four parts. (Mark 12:30) Specifically, however, loving the Lord with all of my mind has been, ironically, on my mind for months. It’s easy to become prideful with knowledge, and whenever that happens we are not loving the Lord with all of our mind.

Some would prefer not to understand scripture better out of the fear of being more accountable, and I do not think this is wise, either. As this decision relies on self-perservation and not Christ to get us through. There are so many people who need to be witnessed to and not everyone can be approached the same way. Biblical knowledge is where we receive wisdom from the Lord. His word is truth and the fear of the Lord is the beginning of wisdom. (Proverbs 9:10)

However, we cannot reach anyone properly, if the knowledge we have is wrong. I was wrong in the majority of my posts from 2016 to 2019 and some posts possibly in 2020. In the previous post, I shared some themes I noticed in my blog of wrong theology. I also have realized the damage of the Seeker-Driver Movement in my posts. It was a false teaching I happened to grow up with. This is what led to me constantly relying (falsely) on feelings for affirmation of my relationship with God. It led me to be confused on my purpose. I felt like I had to “hear” from the Lord outside of scripture to have a good relationship with Him, and that ALWAYS leads to dangerous roads.

What I have noticed now, from studying the Seeker-Driven Movement, is the vagueness these pastors or other men and women will proclaim. When I was younger, I did not catch it, all I thought was “I need to grow more in God to hear Him better, and feel Him better,” like, what does that even mean? And that is kind of the point. Things in the Seeker-Driven Movement seem right, but there is a lot of confusion and burden bearing.

There is a mingled truth in this darkness. Out of my confusion, I sought Him in ways I should not have. Symbols thinking the Lord is speaking to me through x, y, and z, “hearing God outside of scripture”, mistaking my thoughts for His, a bunch of junk. It was worthless because what I was doing, though perhaps made me feel good in the moment, left me just as lost when the emotional high of feeling like God is doing something in my life was gone. Yet, I also became prideful and convinced I had a “strong faith” because of what I thought I “knew” and these “affirming” experiences.

Looking back, it astounds me now how much mysticism is considered Christian when we seek Him in those kinds of ways. Treating the Bible like a magic 8 ball, I totally did. Reading myself and my problems into scripture, absolutely. (Which is why I am still okay with life application to scripture, but done properly because this gets misused so often and women, in particular, are valuable targets to this.) It’s painful to reread what I once thought was completely okay. It is not okay and I’m encouraging sin if I think it is okay!

The truth is JESUS sanctifies us, we do not refine or sanctify ourselves. Sadly, for decades, I misunderstood that, and deceived myself with a works-based theology. Yes, read scripture, pray, worship, fellowship, etc, but understand these actions are for the love of the Lord, not because we are trying to refine ourselves. He alone does that. His grace is sufficient and sola scriptura is, too.

It is beyond frustrating now to hear these lies and misdirection, and that’s what they are, lies. As many of you know, lying is a sin. False teaching is a sin. It presents a false Christ, and a false Gospel. For these reasons, and others I listed in the original post, I absolutely needed to recant and repent publicly because I was encouraging and sharing these false teachings and lies publicly.

My dear friends, please understand, the blood of Jesus takes away our sin but we need to confess our sins to Him and to others. Do not let sin rule in your hearts.

  • (ESV) 1 John 1:09, “If we confess our sins, he is faithful and just to forgive us our sins and to cleanse us from all unrighteousness.”
  • (ESV) James 5:16, “Therefore, confess your sins to one another and pray for one another, that you may be healed. The prayer of a righteous person has great power as it is working.”
  • (ESV) Acts 19:18, “Also many of those who were now believers came, confessing and divulging their practices.”
  • (ESV) Romans 6:12, “Let not sin therefore reign in your mortal body, to make you obey its passions.”

I have such freedom in Christ and the things I used to believe in weighed me down a lot. I want to encourage you that if you have a public platform and you have shared wrong theology that leads to sin, please address it, and remove the false teaching. Let people know why you are changing your position. There is freedom! We do not have to be burdened with the cares of the this world.

  • (ESV) Galatians 5:01, “For freedom Christ has set us free; stand firm therefore, and do not submit again to a yoke of slavery.”
  • (ESV) John 8:31-32, “So Jesus said to the Jews who had believed him, “If you abide in my word, you are truly my disciples and you will know the truth, and the truth will set you free.”
  • (ESV) John 14:06, “Jesus said to him, “I am the way, and the truth, and the life. No one comes to the Father except through me.”

Jesus sets us free. Repent. Recant. Go to Him and share the Gospel with others!

To understand more in-depth what I mean by Christ dying for our sins and why we need to seek forgiveness from sins please see: Why Did A Loving God Kill His Son? (Does God Hate?)

Monthly Scripture To Ponder/Memorize From Psalm 37– (NKJ) Psalm 37:03, “Trust in the Lord, and do good; dwell in the land, and feed on His faithfulness.” 

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7 thoughts on “Thank You All For The Encouragement & Prayers (I Want To Clarify Why I Publicly Recanted)

  1. Very aptly put ma’am. Once more it is the word of God that we live by, man shall not live by bread alone. God says in Galatians 1:8 – But though we, or an angel from heaven, preach any other gospel unto you than that which we have preached unto you, let him be accursed.
    This is we are not to believe anything outside the scriptures and all true experiences from God will be in accordance with scripture as God does not act outside his word. This is why am so humbled and grateful for the new light you have received which just goes to show the hand of God upon your life. God bless you truly, this has put a lot of respect for you in my heart. God bless you ma and keep giving you more light.

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  2. Hello I am 59 with ALS 15 Years slow type with eyes. I. see NO, NONE, NADDA wrong teaching in your ; posts. You? teaching men? Key word Athority. got a good story. Forget COVID19 We all have the SIN VIRUS. I did not see any wrong serving & changing for Jesus. People don’t like obeying God’s instructional book. I have been to seeker church and they never go deep setting up works for how to grow burn out because your spirit is starving

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