Darkness surrounds me,
but I think it’s light.
My eyes are blind,
but I think I see clearly.
Whispers bite me.
Accusation sinks in.
But I love condemnation.
It’s my truth.
The pain makes me alive.
Fear is my veins.
Toxic lies are my tonic.
Black is my white.
Dirt is pure.
Blemish is clean.
Muck is my soap.
Ash is rain.
I feed on nothingness.
I drink poison.
I am full.
I am satisfied.
I tell myself.
I tell myself.
I tell myself.
I TELL MYSELF.
My mirror is fogged.
But I see clearly.
I am hurt.
But pain makes me alive.
But then… the cross.
I was dead in sin.
I couldn’t see.
The darkness that surrounded
that I thought was light.
My eyes were blind.
My day was always night.
The whispers that bit me
were the cause of my fright.
Condemnation from the accuser.
I couldn’t identify before.
I never noticed all the sins
Until walking through the Living Door.
Jesus changed everything.
He caused my eyes to see.
The mirror became a little clearer.
And it was ugly.
I was ugly.
The muck, the poison, the pain.
Pride and vanity on the outside.
Decaying me from the inside.
I thought I thrived in toxic rain.
But I was dying, dead, actually.
My body was alive, but my soul was dead.
My brain was alive, but my mind was dead.
My heart was beating, but my heart was dead.
I lived on hate because my love was dead.
The love of Christ transformed me.
All of me.
He took what was dead, and made new again.
I can breathe.
I will use my body to love Christ.
I will use my mind to love Christ.
I desire my storehouse, my entire being, my heart to love Jesus.
My soul, my spirit, cares about what Jesus cares about.
Before, it was all about me.
My thoughts. My life. My pain.
Belittling myself. Beating myself. Hurting myself.
Never satisfied. Living in lies. Decayed and dead.
But after Jesus.
I want everything to be about Him, not me.
How can I love others the way He loves me?
How can I love Him, understand Him, better?
The biggest deception that fell from my eyes…
Yet, I had to understand the truth about myself
to understand the truth of Christ.
Oh, Lord, please
make the deception fall from my eyes.
Take the misconceptions, the hidden sin,
and reveal WHO YOU ARE!
The best way to discover Who Christ is and why He came is to read your Bible entirely. Do not read portions. Do not treat your Bible like a magic 8 ball, like I used to. Start with the Gospels.
The Gospel Message– The Gospel message is good news, which means there’s bad news. We all are sinners and condemned. We all deserve the just punishment of God’s wrath. Christianity is unlike any other religion because we cannot earn our way into Heaven. God saw the weakness of man and his utter depravity. Yet, He showed us grace. Jesus, God, One Person of the Trinity, became God in the flesh, the God-Man. He was always perfect and sinless. And His humanity was perfected on the cross, living the full sinless life. He became our atonement sacrifice. Dying in our place, taking on the wrath of God upon Himself. He died on the cross, and He was resurrected because death could not hold Him. Jesus is the answer. We, as guilty sinners, need His blood to pay off our debt of sin. For all who put their faith in Him – meaning eyes are opened to the Gospel, we see ourselves as a sinner, we see the need for Christ, we desire our Savior, and we see the ugliness of our sin. Putting our faith in Jesus, we seek HIs forgiveness and repent from our sins, we turn away from our old way of life. We, through the work of the Holy Spirit, continue to become convicted of sin daily. Our eyes will never be the same again. We see things in a different light, and the truth of Christ affects how we live and serve Him. Christ tells us to count the cost. Salvation is a serious topic, it is not to be taken lightly. For a breakdown of this powerful message, understanding how Christ could be God and Man, why God required sacrifices, and more -please see: Why Did A Loving God Kill His Son? (Does God Hate?)
If you think you know the Gospel, check out these questions and see how prepared you are for the day someone might ask you why you believe: The Gospel Challenge (30 Question Quiz) – Are You Ready To Defend Your Faith?
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